My Wish For You

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,



and each road leads you where you want to go,


and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,


I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.


and if one door opens to another door closed,


I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,


if it's cold outside,


show the world the warmth of your smile,


but more than anything, more than anything,






My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,


your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,


You never need to carry more than you can hold,


and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,


I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,


Yeah, this, is my wish.






I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,


all the ones who love you, in the place you left,


I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,


and you help somebody every chance you get,


Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,


and always give more then you take.






But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,






My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,


your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,


You never need to carry more than you can hold,


and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,


I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,


Yeah, this, is my wish.

Happy Birthday to my first born son!! 4 years ago right now I was in awe! Pure awe of you! Raw awe of you!!!

I can hardly believe its only been 4 years since I became a Mum. Some days feel like 4 years!!! Most days are just amazing because you're in them and such an amazing, smart, incredible kid! AND you're MY kid!

Don't ever think for one second you weren't wanted...we tried desperately to have you for a few years. It finally came down to getting medical help as I had a condition that wouldn't allow me to get pregnant naturally (which Samantha shattered!) so we chose the medical route to ensure us having a child together. I'm so incredibly grateful that we were able to have success on the first try as this baby making business is NOT cheap!

My 40 weeks and 4 days of pregnancy with you were incredible!!! We bonded before you were even here!! It wasn't the smoothest of pregnancies, I was monitored pretty closely for gestational diabetes, but managed to avoid medicine by watching what I ate. And, even tho you weighed in at 10 lbs 15 oz (YES, that IS close to 11 lbs) I only managed to gain 3.5 lbs throughout the whole pregnancy. Truly a miracle in my eyes!! :)

I tried picking your birthday....June 1st....but after 8 hours at the hospital with several methods tried, you wouldn't budge! So we went home to wait another week. My due date was June 3rd....and the next chance to induce with my doctor was June 7th...so we signed up for an induction. All day June 6th your dad was in a panic as we didn't want your birth date to be 06/06/06...doesn't sound promising!

At 4:11 am on June 7th I went into labour...naturally!! I'm so glad you liked the day we picked and showed us with your own timing. Granted, you could have let me sleep just a bit longer....just saying....lol! I woke your Dad up about 5 and told him it was time...the standard line every pregnant woman wants to utter! He got up, got showered and dressed while I went and woke Grandma up to go with us. We were supposed to get a phone call around 6 am to let us know if today was a good day for an induction...and when we didn't hear anything from them by 6:30 I called in. The contractions were a little less than 5 mins apart.

I think it was 7:30 by the time we got settled in this amazing room on the maternity floor. THE best room actually!!! Two walls of windows!! The biggest room they have too! Which it turns out was for the best with all the people who came to see you that day.

Most of the day is a blur...they gave me Pitocin to speed things along....and they gave me Fentanol to help with the pain and I was able to get a nap in while contracting every 2 minutes. I do remember at 4 pm they came in and checked me and broke my water to move things along. It didn't take much to achieve this. Around 6 pm I was checked again and was 6 cm dilated. I still had 4 to go. At this point I'd been in labour with you for 14 hours....very exhausting!!! At the 12 hour mark I got an epidural and that did help a bit. He said he was going on a dinner break and grabbing a nap as it typically takes one hour to dilate 1 cm....I told him no nap, I'd be ready to push at 8!!! I wasn't kidding either!!! I was really ready!!!

Your Dad had gone home to check on the dogs (Snickers and Shylah) and take care of them and shower and come back. I called him at 8 and told him to hurry the heck up! I'd already started pushing!! Even Dr Bray missed my first few pushes. By 8:30 everyone was in place ready for your arrival.

By 10:30, after pushing for 2 and a half hours it was decided you were NOT coming out naturally!!! My pubic bone was straight across and not at all curved to allow your head to pass. The decision was made to have an emergency cesarean section. I can remember them giving me this liquid stuff to drink...and I even said to the nurse, please don't make me throw up...there's nothing in my stomach. She was mean! Made me drink it and heave it back out! Nasty stuff!!! blech!

Your dad got dressed up in scrubs to join us in the operating room....while he was dressing Grandma helped me with getting the needle in my back to kill the pain of surgery. She was helpful and at the same time nerving. She was crying which made me cry!! I wasn't worried one bit about the c-section til she started crying. Man!

At 11pm on the dot you were born!! I could feel the pulling and tugging on my body, but could not feel a thing! Very surreal really!! They lifted you up over the curtain so I could see you before they whisked you away to clean you up and weigh you. Oh, you had the best looking kisser I'd ever seen!!! Such a kissable face!!! Thanks to 3D ultrasounds, we already knew exactly what you looked like!! It was amazing! Once they cleaned you and weighed you, you were put in Dad's arms for us to both admire!! I couldn't move to touch you thanks to anesthesia but Dad put you up to my face so I could kiss you all over!!! You didn't cry much...just kinda hung out! They wheeled me back to the room and Dad carried you beside me. Even tho it was 11:30 or so at nite, we still had a crowd waiting to meet you!

Pretty amazing!!! You, are pretty darn amazing!!! Don't ever change!!

The song above is for you...sung by Rascal Flatts...my wishes for you are huge!!! My dreams for you are mountainous!! The world is ready for you!!!

Today, at age 4, you fully understood the day was all about you!!! And very graciously you loved every minute of the attention!!! All the pictures I took...the many, MANY times I wished you a Happy Birthday, while you just thanked me!!! The dozens of times I sang Happy Birthday to you!!! Even the paddy whacks you got!! :D Can't leave those out! 4 is going to be a fun year!!!

We went out to do some Avoning and everywhere we went, he told strangers it was his birthday!! Anyone who would listen to him! It was darling! Then we came home and had the first picnic at the picnic table....in the living room! The weather didn't co-operate! It did clear up and the sun came out...so when Howie got home from work he got a bike lesson. He's doing much better today than Saturday! I'd reckon he'll be doing it on his own by the weekend! His smile and determination are just the best!!

Man, I love this little boy like no other boy!!!! He stole my heart from that first look! Love at first sight really does happen!!


Til next time...pray for safety for all troops!

P.S. sorry this was so long....and yet, I'm not that sorry as I got to re-live a very special day!